Hey all, 

How’s you?

Just for a bit of context, it’s 6pm on a Sunday afternoon, I’m drinking Coke on the sofa, with “That 70s Show” on in the background and a certain little cat of mine (*coughcough* Milo Charlie Essie Hardie *coughcough* (Essie was my first choice of name, then he turned out to be a bloody boy)) is sitting on me and I’m very happy about it. Today turned out to be a really peaceful day.

Anyway, I wanted to give you guys a little catch up on life and what’s new on my end because it’s been a while and I felt like a bit more of a chatty post.

So I went to the Doctor’s about my anxiety (finally). He diagnosed me with generalised anxiety disorder and prescribed me with some supposed “anti-anxiety” meds. They were actually anti-depressants. I checked on the internet and read up and finally decided not to take them. I don’t want to be slave to a pill and on anti-depressants at 15. They lay help some people but it scares me more than anything. I never understood it when people used to say it before but now I totally get it. It’s really daunting, the prospect of taking medication that once you start taking, it’s difficult to come off of them. I feel like I’m too young and that really he just gave me the meds to shut me up and get rid of me. I want to try some other methods of subsidising and then (hopefully) getting rid of my anxiety before taking meds. If anyone has any tips then feel free to let me know as I’m a taker for anything at this point.

I’m actually weirdly happy that I finally have a name to put to a thing. As you guys have probably already guessed, I have a weird obsession with labelling things, and it was frustrating not being able to label that. 

In other mental health matters, I'm okay. I'm not good, I'm not bad, I'm okay. I'm dealing. I still have my good days and my bad days but I’m trying my best to focus on the positive and remember what Mama once told me: “one bad day doesn’t make a bad life” and keep battling through. As the Koreans say, fighting!

Mama and I successfully moved. The apartment is so freaking pretty and we’re adding bits and bobs from our travels (both together and separately) and it’s bringing everything together really nicely. Another bonus is that we are in a much bigger village than we were before which makes it much easier for me to get to town, even though I probably wouldn’t even need to go because it’s got everything I could need already. There’s a supermarket, 2 pizza places (and one is right next door to us. I’m going to start giving the owner’s daughter English lessons and I’m *this* tempted to ask for free pizza in exchange - I’ll keep you updated on how I fare), 2 hairdressers - bref, it’s great.

College is going well. I did my first period of work experience which was shit. My boss was incredibly critical of everything and my confidence really took a nose dive. I'm back at school now and I'm working hard to make sure I'm as good as I can possibly be. I've also decided what I'm going to do after I graduate (a specialisation in colorimetry).


I've written a lot of new songs at the moment which makes me really happy. As I mentioned in my 2016 Goals post at the start of the year, I wanted to write more songs because I love the feeling when I rush into the kitchen and play my Mum a new song. It's all rather exciting. I'm currently at an impass since my guitar is having a lil' sabatical (3 of the strings have snapped and I haven't gotten around to replacing them yet), but I'm going to try and get back to it as soon as possible!

I wanted to mention this but I didn't really know when or in what kind of post I could, so I decided to throw this out here: my friend Summer has launched her blog! If everyone could go and give her some love then I'd really appreciate it because personally I love it and I love her too so it's a win-win situation (not really but just nod and pretend I'm right - thanks boo).

Blog-wise, there are two new and exciting things that have happened recently. First of all, I've finally bitten the bullet and created a Facebook page (which the more observant portion of you guys will already have seen since it's now down below with all my social media links). I'd really appreciate it if you guys could share it and like it and all that good stuff so that you guys are fully informed when I have a blog post go live and also to grow this lil' community that we've got going, too.
Second new and exciting thing is that I have created a new blog! Let me explain. So over recent months, I've developped quite a big love for K-Pop and K-Dramas and I really wanted to talk to someone about that love, so I thought to myself "well why not start a blog? That way people can choose if they want to hear you rave about Korean men or not", so, with the help of my bloody brilliant friend Ellie, I found the name and the layout that I wanted. So if you fancy checking it out then you're welcome to: Dying For Drama.

I think that's all I have to say really. What's new with you guys?