Hey all, how's you?

I've been a bit out of sorts on my blog recently. I'm not really sure where I want my blog content to go, because let's face it, there's only so many times you can talk about lipsticks, so sorry about the odd posts and strange posting dates.



I'm going through a lot of changes in myself recently. My interests are changing, my style of thinking has done a 180, and I'm finding myself interested in things that I would have found weird once upon a time. Actually my life is doing a 180 at the moment. Given the fact that I'm finished college, exams are upon us, and everything feels very final. I'm currently stuck with what to do next year, given the fact that I can't get an apprenticeship until I get my qualifications, but I need to do stuff with the school involved with the apprenticeship but I can't given the fact that I can't get an apprenticeship. Also, I need to inscribe myself to my backup course. GAHHHHH. It's a massive vicious cycle and it's scaring me because everything is just teetering on 'nearly happening' but then life is moving too fast for everything and it's a very strange sensation and it's basically just making me want to hide in bed and watch Friends all day.

Long story short, everything is going to shit, but it's okay because it was my birthday so I'm going to have a shit ton of money to buy pretty shit. To be honest, being able to find discount codes everywhere is starting to become an art, I swear, it's wonderous.
Speaking of pretty shit, I've realised more and more that I'm a massive snob when it comes to make-up. I swear I turn my nose up at anything that doesn't have a certain price tag or a certain name, and I KNOW HOW BAD THAT IS but I just can't help myself! I just can't trust it!

I'm trying to write and create and develop my skills in music but it's just not happening. I'm trying to get better at song writing and playing guitar but I'm totally unmotivated. I don't think right now is quite the right time for me to learn anything like that, given that I need to make my exams my main priority (says the girl writing her blog while she's supposed to be revising).

SO YEAH FUN TIMES. On the mental health front, I had a bad pass a week or so ago when I was constantly having panic attacks for seemingly no reason, but they seemed to have calmed down. My anxiety and my paranoia is on a normal level and I haven't had a really low day for a while now (touch wood!). I'm making the most of this time where my brain is fairly level to try and understand my mental illnesses better. Trying to understand what triggers me, what I should and shouldn't do; my logic behind it is that the better I understand it, the easier it'll be to conquer it.

I'm not sure if there will be a May favourites, I have got a load of clothes from a friend and I'll have a fair few purchases what with my birthday money so I may just do a mega-haul, I'm not sure yet. To be fair, I'll probably put a poll up on Twitter and let you lot vote.

Hey all, how's you?


God I'm old. This is fun! Next year I'm officially an adult *fist pump* soon my tattoos shall come!

1. Stop trying to hide your freckles. Embrace them! They're so cute!

2. Contour and highlight are real life photoshop and it's wonderful.

3. Talking calmly to someone about something that they're doing that bothers you is never a bad thing.

4. It's okay to not understand your sexuality.

5. Be proud of who you are and everything that you do.

6. It's okay to need to take some time out to not see people. That doesn't make you a bad friend or selfish.

7. Talk to people about things that make you uncomfortable.

8. Lists are good as long as you don't let them rule your life.

9. Writer's block will pass.

10. You're aloud to find your friends mind-bogglingly hot and yet not want a relationship with them.

11. Don't google your symptoms. Google will probably tell you you're dying when you've actually just got a cold.

12. It takes longer than you'd think to built up a circle of people you genuinely would trust with your life.

13. Punctuation is really important. Use it, goddamnit!

14. Just because everyone around you is having sex, doesn't mean that you have to as well. If sex isn't something that attracts you that doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you.

15. Literally no one is going to pressure you into taking drugs in high school or college.

16. Eating healthily and having a decent diet reduces anxiety.

17. You can literally listen to whatever music you want. You don't have to stick to one genre. Just because you listen to metal doesn't mean you can't listen to k-pop (speaking from experience).

18. You are absolutely allowed to love with yourself and find yourself attractive.

19. A good handshake shows a lot about someone.

20. Self-love will never break your heart.

As always I hope you guys enjoyed this post and I'll see you next week!

Hey all, how's you?

Even though I'm not wearing a hell of a lot of make-up lately, I always find myself going to back to this look.

After brushing a little bit of powder to matify my greasy teenage face (Sephora 'MicroSmooth' compact powder), I start right on with my newfound favourite part of my make-up routine - contour! I don't contour a massive amount, just my cheekbones and jawline with the bronzer in my TooFaced palette 'The Chocolatier' palette which you can't buy anywhere anymore (sob). I'm also using the highlight and the blush from the same palette (honestly, I have no idea what I'm going to do when I run out of this palette!)

For my eyes, I decided to use the shade 'Lava Cake' from my TooFaced palette (yes, again) on my top and lower lash line. I blended it out a little to make it a bit more smoky, then added some white eyeliner to the rest of my bottom waterline to open my eye up a bit (I'm not sure why but I'm all for the massive anime-like eye at the moment. I'm a woman obsessed, I tell you). I also add some white eyeshadow to the corner of my eye.


For mascara, I'm currently switching between the MAC 'False Lashes' mascara in Extreme Black and the TooFaced 'Better Than Sex' mascara (both are samples I have, both are amazing and I'm dreading the day they run out!), but I generally opt for the MAC for daytime use.
For eyebrows, I'm using the Benefit 'Gimme Brow' brow mascara in the shade 05 - deep.

Now for the pièce de résistance - the lips! I'm using the Urban Decay 'Vice' lipstick in the shade 'Blackmail' and I am in love! It's a really nice vampy, purply/red shade and it's just exactly what I've been looking for recently.

Hey all, how's you?

I feel like March and April have been the longest and shortest months ever; it's so strange! I have, however been loving loads of different things over these couple of months and as usual I'm going to be sharing them with you guys!



Urban Decay 'Vice' lipstick in Blackmail
This is the lipstick of my dreams. I've been waiting for a lipstick like thiis before I knew I wanted one. It looks black, has red and purple undertones, and it just makes me look badass and everything good in the world.

A Place Of Secrets by Rachel Hore

I've already discussed my love for this book, but it's going back in here because fucking hell I have been glued to this book for the whole of March! It got juicy (yes it's a bit of a slow starter) and now I'm dreading the end!

'That's The Spirit' by Bring Me The Horizon

I'm aware that a lot of my music favourites are a bit late (far too long after the release!) but I realised that I'd never listened to the full album, and when I did, my love for BMTH was rekindled. The lyrics, the music, the meaning, everything is just utter perfection. I couldn't pick a favourite because I love them all!

Killstar 'Bella Morte' dress




I came across this dress because Harmony Nice featured it in her March favourites and as soon as I saw it I knew I needed it in my life. The lace detailing and the whole witch vibe it gives off is right up my street and ohhh it makes my heart happy. I'm really trying to get some new dressed at the moment for the this summer because I honestly have none so if anyone has any good sites for clothes that aren't too expensive hook a girl up.

'Divide' by Ed Sheeran

Needless to say that this is a work of art. It's so well written and everything about it is amazing. My favourites are Galway Girl, Shape Of You, and Castle On The Hill:

'Ask The Passangers' by A.S King

THIS BOOK. THIS FUCKING BOOK LORDY LORD. It's possibly one of my favourite books ever. It's about a 17 year old girl from a small town, who is also kind of in love with a girl. As you do. It's all about questionning your sexuality and the solidity of friendships when it comes down to it, but it also has loads of references to great minds like Socrates and Plato and I just think it's such a good LGBT book. I honestly read it in about 2 days. The only criticism I have is that the end didn't have much of a ´wow' factor and I still had questions that went unanswered.



Bourjois 'Velvet Edition Rouge' in 'It's Reddin' Men'

I'm now obsessed with this liquid lipstick. I've always had an appreciation for liquid lipsticks, but a lot of them dried my lips out, so I gave up on them and stuck with my trusted matte lips (that also dried my lips but fuck it). Then, when I tried this, my life changed. The formula is really nice and smooth on my lips, it applies really well and lasts for ages.

Caroll 'Samantha Ruby' dress


Every year my school put on a fashion show, and this year I was singing with a friend of mine and for this fashion show, there are shops based in the town where my college is who lend us clothes and the shop who was lending me my outfit was a shop called Caroll. This was the first thing I tried on and even though at first I felt really uncomfortable and weird, it very quickly grew on me. The clincher is that it costs 130€ (I can confirm I choked when I heard that). It's so pretty though! It's beautifully comfortable and can be dressed up and down. All the heart eyed emojis.