Before you say, yes, I'm aware I'm a *bit* late. Back to school has been rather hectic and I haven't had the chance to take the photos until now.

August has been a jam packed week for me. It really has. It's been busy, I've been all over the place, but the good part is that I've seen all my favourites, and along the way I've accumulated a couple of things I've been enjoying, too.

I've got more make-up favourites for once which is a nice change.

BareMinerals 'Complexion Rescue' Tinted Hydrating Gel

I had already tried this a while ago and it really wasn't for me. However, I found it at the back of my cupboard and decided to give it another go. Turns out, over the summer my skin has finally caught the sun, so it actually now suits my skin tone. So yeah, at first I honestly didn't get the hype at all, but now I really do. I've been looking for something like this for quite a while now and I'm kind of annoyed that I didn't realise I had what I was looking for under my nose.

Mac 'Lightful C' Spray

I don't understand what this is used for, but I just like using it as a little pick me up, my skin can feel quite 'meh' in the morning and this kind of just wakes my skin up and helps me feel a bit fresher.

Game Of Thrones

Season 7 has honestly been one of the best seasons yet. Just the show in itself, just to look at is beautiful, incredibly well shot, the acting was on point, just, uh! I haven't got enough words to express my love for this show.

Hot Girls Wanted: Turned On

I heard about this from Hannah Witton, because Erica Lust was interviewed in the first episode, so I decided to have a look. There's a film on Netflix called Hot Girls Wanted which is kind of the same thing.


Essie Nail Varnish in 'Midnight Cami'

I've been searching desperately a new dark nail varnish because dear lord there are none in sight, then Mama bought this Essie nail varnish. Even though I've never tried an Essie nail varnish, I know them by reputation, and I really wanted to try them out. This one is in the colour 'midnight cami' and it's a really pretty dark blue.

dodie 'You' EP

dodie is very quickly becoming one of my favourite singers. Her songs are all beautifully written and produced and they're just amazing. 'You' is her second EP and I'm obsessed, my favourite song being 'in the middle' which is actually about a threesome.

'The Café Of Lost Youth' by Patrick Mondiano

I like to say that this book is similar to 'Little Women', in the sense that you enjoy reading it but you have no fucking clue what's going on most of the time because of the lack of context to everything. Despite that, I've been oddly enjoying it and can't bloody wait to find out more about the mysterious 'Condé' (which is a café in the book).

I went to Biscarrosse (a sea town about 2 hours away from where I live) with my boyfriend and his family last week, and I took a few snaps. I asked you guys and everyone seemed to want to see my snaps, so this is that.

I can't remember specifically what days these were taken on so I'm just splurging with loads of them.

I think the first thing to start off on is my boyfriend: meet Ayden.


So as soon as we got there we dropped off the bags, and because we got there quite late we had the luck to admire this from our terrace which was rather nice.


The next day we decided to go into the town for some much needed seaside food, which is France, consists of churros, waffles, crêpes, and ice cream. We opted for gauffres that we got at this freaking adorable little stand that I could have photographed all day.


And we finally got to go to the beach! It was glorious, especially given that I hadn't seen the ocean in about 4 or 5 years.


As we walked back up through the town (well, fought through the town given the sheer amount of people), we passed a Tahitian Tattoo Shop that was designed so beautifully.

Here's what I was wearing on the fourth day by the way:


I honestly never get bored of that sunset. Just, ahhhh.

I hope you enjoyed this post! I really enjoyed this format of post so I think I'll do it again when I go off places.

Matti x

It's been a while, hasn't it? I've kind of lost the habit when it comes to blogging, which is an odd sensation given that it's something I've done regularly for the past 4 years. It feels good though, I'd missed blogging. As you've probably seen, I've also done some major redecorating over the past couple of months, what do you think? I'm actually pretty happy with it, which is a refreshing change. I'm between two minds for my blog design, whether I should make it very clean and minimalist or whether I should do a very random and original design, though I am really enjoying this current layout so I think I'm going to stick this one for a bit.

I'd really like to say that things have been super hectic at the moment and that "I've simply got no time to blog!" but I'd be lying through my teeth if I did. Honestly, this has been one of the most unproductive summers I've ever had. I kind of feel terrible for it but it felt so good!

I passed my exams in June and left my college and got my qualifications and began looking for a job. I had a couple of trial periods but they didn't amount to anything, and after a really awful experience with a salon, I started really questioning whether or not I wanted to stay in hairdressing. It was kind of a terrifying thought, given that for about 3 years I've been convinced and insisting to everyone that hairdressing is what I want to do. I look like a *bit* of a tit. I've been thinking about what I want to do, and long story short, I'm going to be (hopefully) doing my a-levels in commerce.

As I said, this summer has consisted of varying between my girlfriend's house and my Mum's house. I feel like I haven't done all that much else, other than my job at the pizzeria next my my Mum's and babysitting my girlfriend's nieces and nephew.

I guess you may be wondering why I went fairly AWOL recently, and to be honest it's just been a total lack of inspiration and motivation. I seemed to have, overnight, lost any capability to write something sassy and original and interesting that would captivate people. And more importantly, I'd lost the motivation and the willingness to do so, for the first time in about 3 years. Everything I wrote seemed bland and a little lifeless. I felt like I was writing the same content thing over and over and I just didn't want to tell you guys yet again 'what I've been loving this month!' with a fake smile and pretty photos that took me an age and a half to take. It started to feel exactly that - plastic. Fake. Unoriginal and more importantly unauthentic. It was me, just not quite. I write in the same voice that I speak in, but sometimes I struggle to get across the nuances and the tonalities, especially when I'm being sarcastic. But that's beside the point. The point is that I needed some time off. Some genuine time off, and not a note at the end of a post saying that I'm taking a week off, only to continue posting. I needed some time where I could close the tab in my browser that has been open constantly on every computer I've had for 4 years - the Blogger tab. I needed some time where I could let myself not wonder how my latest blog post is doing. I needed to let myself be a person before I was a blogger.

Anyway, I'm off on my holibobs (does anyone say that or is it just me?) on Saturday and I'm thinking about writing a post with some photos because it's meant to be a really nice place. What do you guys think?

Matti x

Hey all, hows you?

I was inspired by Zoe London's post to write this because it really got me thinking about androgyny and gender-fluidity and gender-conformity.

Hey all, how's you?

I've got to say, I'm not doing too well with this blog malarky, am I? I'm trying, guys, I really am, but life has become very hectic all of a sudden so I'm doing my best to balance everything out, but something had to suffer and sadly it turns out that something was my blog content. I figured to get myself back into things I'd give you guys a little run down of some things I've been enjoying using of late. There's no particular month or anything to this, just things I've been liking recently.

Hey all, how's you?

It was my birthday in May, so instead of doing a May favourites, I asked you guys what you preferred and you guys said that you wanted to see a birthday haul, so that is what I am giving to you.



KILLSTAR 'Witch' Beanie

I was peroosing the Killstar website (which is basically all I ever do, not going to lie), and I found this little gem. I've needed a beanie forever and a day and I just thought this was perfect. To be totally honest it may be a tad small, and doesn't really look right with my hair this short, but I just need to wait for a bit for my hair to grow a bit more.

'Reality Boy' by A.S King

Mama gave me one of A.S King's books for Christmas and I'd reaaally enjoyed it, and in the back of that book was a part of this book. It's about a guy who has anger management problems so I think I'm really going to connect with this book.

'The Meaning Of Liff' by Douglas Adams and John Lloyd

If you've been reading my blog for a while this may ring some bells. I've wanted to get this book for ages, but for one reason or another I hadn't, so I figured it was the time to get it!



Silicone Rainbow Plug 

In case it wasn't yet obvious I'm a raging lesbian. I did a crazy factory order - of course I did.

Bullet Plug

I already had this plug in 8mm, but seeing as I think I'm going to stick to 12mm for a bit, I figured I'd let myself buy it again.

White Stretching Expender

I still currently need to stretch from 10mm to 12mm, so that's what that's for.

Black Hoop Earrings

I need a simple earring for my non-stretched ear! I'd stolen an odd one off Mama but it kind of started a weird infection so I decided to take it out and replace it with one that Marion lent to me, but given that I'm going to need to give it back at one point or another, I figured I needed to get my own. These are just really simple black hoops.

Fake Eyelashes

I've been curious about fake lashes for a while, and when I was trying to thaw out my Crazy Factory order, I saw that there were some fake lashes that were on offer, so I figured why not and picked some up; I don't know about the quality, but I'm hoping it'll be okay enough for me to see if I like them or not.



In The Café Of Lost Youth by Patrick Mondiano

I read a passage of this book for my literature mocks, and it actually seemed like a really good read so I decided to pick it up since I'm long due some reading material.

JustFab 'Mitchie' Boots

Look, I'm aware that these aren't exactly 'summer' shoes, but I'm not really a person for showing my toes, so I tend to go for closed-toe shoes, and I've had my eye on these for aaages and I decided to finally

I'm not going to lie, there's probably going to be more, but so far this is what I have! I hope you enjoyed this post, let me know in the comments what the best birthday present you've ever gotten.

Hey all, how's you?


I'm pissed. You know why? Because recently, I feel like my eyes are being opened by women have to put up with daily. First, I learn that many of my female friends were raped or sexually agressed when they were younger. Then, I watched a short film by the amazing Sammy Paul called 'One Another' that, yet again, shoved the inequalities faced by women. Next, a mere couple of hours after I watch that short film, my best friend calls me in a panic because a guy cat called her in the street and, when she didn't answer, proceeded to follow her for about 5 minutes, shouting things at her!

You understand? Still not? Then allow me to elaborate. The more I grow up, the more I realise just how shitty it is that I have a vagina. I am going to be less likely to get a job, because I have a vagina. I'm going to be shouted at in the road and I'm expected to be okay with it, because I have a vagina. I can't dress a certain way, because I have a vagina. In some countries, I'm considered less of a human because I have a vagina. My sexuality isn't just my sexuality, but it's also considered 'sexy' and 'a turn on' to people with penises, because my partner and I have vaginas. I'm going to get paid less, because I have a vagina. I have to ask my friends to come with me somewhere because I'm afraid of someone jumping at me, because I have a vagina. The slightest thing I say can be construed as flirtatious, and almost immediately means I want sex with the person on the receiving end of this 'flirting', because I have a vagina. If I get raped, it'll be my fault, because I was asking for it. Because I have a vagina. 

I'm expected to fit some perfect mould various people with penises have created; I'm expected to agree with everything, to nod and wave, to not have any body modifications and god forbid I have any body hair, or anything that could put off someone with a penis because then how would they get off to their totally deformed idea of what a woman looks like? I'm not meant to be anything other than a size zero, I'm not meant to have any excess fat or body rolls, I'm meant to have a flat stomach and double D tits and a arse like Nicki Minaj or Jennifer Lopez.

If I sleep with no one I'm a prude who doesn't know how to let loose, but if I sleep with too many people I'm a slut. If I wear jeans and a roll neck jumper I'm not making the most of my assets, but if I wear shorts and a crop top I'm asking for it. If I get raped, it's my fault. If I get mildly annoyed, I'm hysterical. If I show said annoyance, I'm an angry bitch who's probably on her period and needs to take a chill pill because who in hell thinks that maybe, just maybe, I could just be pissed off at a world that will automatically think that everything is my fucking fault and if I'm not born photoshopped and if I'm not what is considered at the time 'beautifully' then I'm not worth it and I'm considered 'less than' other people and not because my menstrual cycle has affected my mood! I’ve become cynical after a while. I sneer at the prospect of being treated like an object because I’m a woman. I roll my eyes at the concept that I’m never really going to be listened to because I’m a woman. In any case, we're just dumb bitches who need everything to be explained to them slowly.

Like I said in the title of this post - what about the women? We so often get forgotten, because people just expect us to follow willingly.